Secrets, beauty, and intrigue

5-9-15

Jackasses are hardly the hardest part of relationships anymore...

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college

temporary

a fear

college

 I'll get that done easily!
What if I don't?

it's been a dumb semester

 I threw this out today... but put it here instead.
I don't need them anymore.

I am happy.

"They don't need to know how you feel..."

Drunks and kids tell the truth.

When's the next time?

I found you, Jolly love.

I admire you for your resolve .. because you just left!

when I walk the streets here, I often ask myself, 

whatever happened to the normal people...

I wish I could tell you in person. I am sorry.

I'm utterly afraid of the future.

I think about you - everyday

>>  <3  >

it'll never love you back.

Only God and HE know why he doesn't respond any more. And why my calls, texts emails etc. remain unanswered. ... Why can't guys just say what's going on?

do I really like you or do I just like feeling wanted?

Since you told me that you like me, I am the happiest girl in the world. 

The fact that you were drunk, I'm putting out of my mind

A dream, a desire...to meet you one day.

again and again this rather frightening but still so liberating thought.

at night, I fall asleep in tears.

all I want is to be in the arms of another..and stay there forever.

at the beginning of september he will be gone.. 

soon i'm afraid he doesn't know how much me means to me..

 how much i will miss him.

 i love you!

I have changed. Thank you.

he is inaccessible.

I am already thinking about it at the moment, 

what it will be like to be all alone next winter.

I can't forget you.

(sorry)

I am lonely. 

and it's my own fault. 

shit.

I cannot get out.

I don't know what to do with these feelings.

I can't tell you so every day I tell the water, 

the earth, the grass, the sun, and the clouds that I love you

i have to continue living my life... 

but i can't do it and it hurts so much... 

because i still love you...

I don't know, did I dream of you?

I miss you.

thoughts are free

I lied.

you have to leave when I want.

I miss you.

I said that I wanted my own life, and moved out.

now I sometimes lie in bed at night and miss you a lot,

 and I think back to my childhood and cry a little. 

I love you a lot!

I so want to just give up but I promise I won't do it.

I want to be alone.

I still believe that you miss me, but I know that it's only because i miss you!

I still want you.

I'm different. 

special.

I'm afraid that one day I'll be all alone.

I'm scared of ending up old, alone, and bitter.

I'm in love with you...

I'm lost.

find me.

it's never too late.

it's hard being free and easy like you.

knowing too many secrets, I forget mine.

a place I'd like to visit.

beautiful.

my body is too small 

to contain all the love i have for you.

next year ill be gone - with or without you all.

other times I think I'm just being punished.

people exchange love 

love changes people 

people believe love 

love decives people 

people hate love

 love trust people 

people hope love

 love happy people 

people exchange love

right now everything that has to do with you seems unbearable. 

but I know in the end everything will turn out like it is supposed to turn out.

sometimes, I wish I had the courage to walk out 

over bridges and perch out when I feel like it.

today, i know that dreams can become rality.

the thought of falling in love with you

 is what i fear the most.

when i think of you i forget my name 

and know yours all the better

we're going to find a solution.

this, only because of the following comment:

when I took an introduction to sailing class they told us, 

when in doubt, let it out referring to the sails, 

but it turns out that was the best advice I've had in life...

you are missing one single person,

yet everywhere is empty.